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Title:	Untitled
Date:	2007-05-31 4:23 PM
Security:	public
Music:	Spitalfield-Only thing that matters
Mood:	frustrated

Hmmm. okayy so where do i beginnn..
i kind of dont want this thing anymore because i NEVER have time to write in it haha and yeah its kind of going to waste.

only 15 days left of school. Im really excited i can't wait for the summer.
Everything has been going good lately. Good grades..good friends..good life :]]] yuuuh.

For awhile though i was like yess i like being single and everything because people at this age if they go out are most likely not gonna end u together forever you know and half of the people say I love you and clearly dont mean it. So i said to myself..you know have fun whatever but dont get too involved with a guy that you want to have a relationship because it wont last. But i dont know i like being single and all but after awhile it gets kind of boring and you just get to the point where your like ..screw it..and i think i have reached that point haha. I just want a guy who i can be myself around and laugh and makes me happy. Thats ALLL i want haha is that so much to askk?? :// ughh oh well i guess im just going to have to wait and see.

ANYWAYSS i havee a freeakkinnn research paper i have to write..6 pages due tomorrow and i have one page done...haha im procastinating sooo much but yeah i think im going to go that so i dont fail english :]]

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Title:	i miss you quite terribly...
Date:	2007-05-11 7:45 PM
Security:	public
Music:	Blink182-Rockshow
Mood:	frustrated

I havent updated in awhile. Ive been really busy lately.

So last weekend andrea me and josh went to the Hellogoodbye concert :]] it was really amazing,besides the fact me and andrea almost passed out because it was so hot. Saterday night i stayed at andreas and then sunday morning went into joshs dads then went on the train and all that bullshit it was really funny haha so many good times with them. Boys like Girls also played they were wicked good,the Hush Sound played too they were alright. The rocket summer was sppose to play but they never came :[[ oh well. The concert got over about 10 and then we all went back to joshs dads in southie. Andrea had to go to school the next day and me and josh were kind of like um not going haha. We went to bed about 2? oh yeah aha

and apparentlyyyyy i talk in my sleep? yeah hahaha according to andrea and josh lol i dont remember.
All i can remember is them talking wicked loud and then waking me up..then josh saying KYLIE in manly voice and them not expecting me to respond back and i go JOSH in a really deep voice hahahaha we laughed for a good 5 minutes <333333

So monday came along and we went back to joshs house in weymouth anddd andrea stayed for awhile then left to go to school and me and josh went back to sleep :]] haha. It was really funny because we would wake up and be like yah blah blah and talk to each other for about 10 minutes then everything goes silent and whatta ya know were sleeping again. We did this till 430 lol. His kitty nala kept us entertained in between hahaha .

This week was dragging by so goddamn slow but now its friday :] yay.
It has been so hot out this whole week its discusting when you have to sit in school with no AC with people sweating and smelling. I swear people dont know how to use deoderant haha it was bad.
There is only about 27 days left of school and im wicked excited. I feel like its going to get hotter and hotter though. Im not going to be able to sit there and concentrate when its 90 out haha sorry nope wont do it.

Today went by really fast. First period i had foods and we made smoothies with corn muffins haha yum :]. Then i had German for a Double block and we watched Ice age in german then went outside to readd ahhaha it was gorgeous out but sitting in the sun wasnt fun.
Well at least i got tanned haha :]]]

Ever since the concert ive been feeling kinda shitty like my chest hurts and my throat..my voice keeps comming in and out ah i better not be getting sick again :[[ i hope its just alergiess. Which most likely it is.
I should be out right now its friday haha but im so tired and lazy..im going out with a few people later on though to go the beach and hangoutt. Should be fun
Tonight will deffinitly be an early night :]]

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Title:	lala
Date:	2007-04-28 11:59 PM
Security:	public
Music:	Young Love-Closer to you
Mood:	cold

So i just got home alittle while ago from hanging with andie kate and jossshh. Which was extremely fun. As always. haha

I had another monsterr and it was an XL one..but im not even like awake. Im so tired but i dont want to go to bed haha. Anywayss

Tomorrow is basicaly going to suckk wicked bad. I have so much homework to do. I have to do my whole friggin MLA outline for english for my 6 page research paper. OH GREAT..i have to do it though because if i dont ill fail and yeah i dont need that haha. Thenn i have to do study guides for history that are due on tuesday but i havent started them soo its gonna be a big pain in the ass. Im definitly not looking forward to school monday at all. But we got report cards on friday and i did reallyyy good :]]] im really proud of myself haha.

So in my last post..i was really upset and yeah i kind of just spoke my mind. Im alot better now and ive been thinking about alot of things. For one thing im definitly over the biggest problem that i had with someone. I think just hanging out with my friends and seeing people in school made me get over it. Im happy though :]] because nothing is really going bad right now.(knock on wood). School is almost outt and im pretty excited.

I cannot wait for this summer. Im going to be going to alot of concerts which are comming up in may. Im definitly excited for warped tour this year :]] i just hope its not like 110degrees out and i get fried haha.

Im taking a road trip with andie kate and maybe josh to california. i cannot wait. Im also going to new york. I really wanna see ground zero..but i wanna see the statue of liberty and stuff as well. Ive only been to the NY airport when i was going to germany so i didnt see much.

Another trip im going on is hopefully to michigann to see my lovely friend bradd :]] i hope it works out becausee hes amazing and yeah lets end it at that :]]]]

I should be going to bed now because i have to get up at 8 tomorrow. gross :[[

Gutenach
<333

Du bist ein arschloch :]]

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Title:	Defense mechanisms
Date:	2007-04-25 3:39 PM
Security:	public
Music:	LAX- forget you
Mood:	irritated

okayy so Monday..back to school ughh wicked annoying. I didnt wanna go back at allll. This vacation flew by and it wasnt even really all that great. Especially saterday and sunday. I didnt have anyhomework which was good but it just dragged by. It kinda seemed like the week was dragging by but its really not...tomorrows already thursday :]]]. So yeah It was gorgeous out monday and tuesday. I went outside and got sun.. Now i have a sun burn :[[[ haha

Today was an alright day i guess. I had foods first period and we made..apple pizzas? yes..rolls with apples with cinnamin and sugar..sounds good right? WITH CHEESE on top haha all i thought was discusting. It was really good though :]]. Second period was german...and we basically worked on our movie project thing all class for a double block..it was fun. Were filming it tomrorow..oh jeeze. Then the day just flew by after that.

I have so muchh shit going on in my head right now im trying to be positive and smile but its really hard. We actually talked about this in my decisions class today.. about defense mechanisms...it was interesting..really got me thinking.. but i think thats the problem...i think way to much and i tend to overthink things alot. Im really a negative thinker as well.. I always put bad thoughts into my head and think of all possible ways it can go wrong..not the good ways..always the bad. I really need to start being more positive about stuff. For instince..on friday..got my hopes up WAY to high and i thought everything was going to work out..said to myself...maybe this is different than all the other times you know..dont be so hard on yourself just be happy and everything will work out..

Did things work out?...eh..well...NO..not at all..and thats why saterday and sunday were really annoying and i just wanted them to pass by. The thing is too..im too nice to people..and i always care about other people instead of myself..I really need to stop thinking about other people and caring about them so much and worry about myself. Im done being a nice person to everyone who doesnt deserve it. Im fed up..and im fed up with one other person.. Which i wont mention any names..if they read this they will automatically know who im talking about. I sat and thought about things saterday and sunday..on just about everything andd i kept putting myself down and thinking about it constant..now that were back to school its not really on my mind that often but its still there. Im trying to focus on school more..i have been and im doing good i just idk do better? I really cant take all this shit anymore. School is almost over..50..something days left then its the summer. Next year ill be a senior and then thats it. More and more i cant wait to get out of school and not deal with everyones drama. Im getting older and ive been realizing things more and figuring out whos important to me and whats important to me and who isnt. I now know who my real friends are and i wouldnt change that for the world. But for all you other people who pretend to be my friend and act like a fucking seven year old..i got news for you..GROW UP. Your in 11th grade and you still act like your in 6th grade. Its ridiculous. I dont need you in my life..and you mean nothing to me. FYI

Anyways..im pretty excited for this weekend... im getting a tatoo :]]]] on my lower back..yes call it a tramp stamp..i dont care what you call it..im getting it end of story. :] so yeah i still have about 123012 other things i would like to say in here but i think ill leave it at this and wait for another day.

~~ich liebe dich~~

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Title:	Cant sleep
Date:	2007-04-21 2:13 AM
Security:	public
Music:	Dashboard C- stolen my heart

Tonight was abosolutly freaking amazing :]]] words can't even explain how i feel right now. I haven't been this happy in I don't even know how long :D

<3333 ich liebe er

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Title:	Random
Date:	2007-04-19 10:46 PM
Security:	public
Location:	my room
Music:	Blink182-First Date
Mood:	confused

Yahhh so today kinda blowedddd reallly baddd and i wass like in the worst mood all day because i didnt get to hangout with shawn last night or today and yeah i felt like a bag of shit. Anyways i went the dentist today..retainer check..no fun..untill i went into the room and saw that i had a student working on me today..might i add he was SO ATTRACTIVE haha wow. Went in and visited my grandparents for a little in southie. That was fun.(yeah right) haha that was bad.. :x

Afterwards i just came home and basically didnt do anything..went online..you know the same old same old. I really wasnt up for anything anddd i was missing someone verry much so and couldnt get him off my mind. Might i add still cant. =p

Thenn i started talking too shawnn andddd we kept texting each other and i just got extremely happy :]]]. ahh im going the carnival tomorrow with him and probally meeting up with andrea or something im very excited :]] anddd im also getting my hair done tomrorow im scareed haha. its going to be all streaky though :]]

Its amzing how you can be so depressed one minute and just by talking to one person they make you feel 100% better the next. I have a feeling tomrorow will be an awesome day :]

Ich Liebe Dich <33333333333

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Title:	Boredd
Date:	2007-04-17 6:23 PM
Security:	public
Music:	(+44)-Lillian
Mood:	irritated

Yeah so its raining out and im really bored! This past weekend has kind of been retarded except for saterday. I have so many things on my mind and i just dont know what to do about half of them.It just seems everything is going downhill and yeah i have no clue. Plus with people being dickheads is no help. Im kind of looking forward to this week though.

Tomorrow im spposed to be going to the carnival with people..dont know though because it might rain! andd the fact that people are acting retarded about it. whatever. Probally going to sleep over andreas with joshh again haha. Another night probally of getting no sleep what so ever.

So yeah thrusday im goingg to hangout with shawn hopefullyyy. I hope it works out haha since we havent seen each other in foreverrr and i miss him <33

Then fridayyyyyy <333 haha 4/20 im not gonna even explain it :]] you should know what im talking about if not, just leave haha.

xoxoxo

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Title:	You want to start over, but never start over
Date:	2007-04-15 4:36 PM
Security:	public
Music:	Hilary Duff- never stop
Mood:	sore

Yeah so this is my first entry haha. I used to have one of these awhile ago and I kind of didnt have time for it. Most likely its going to happen with this one too but oh well.

Im extremelyyy tired and sickk. Last night was really amazing haha. I hung out with andrea and josh <333 So i had about 3 monster energy drinks and i didnt get any sleep haha. I was extremely hyper it wasnt normal. I dont think I will be drinking those any time soon. We really never do anything which may seem boring but its really not. Just hanging out and talking and being stupid..walking places..going and sitting on the swings...sitting in the gazebo freezing..going down the slides haha joshh. Its just amazing. Just having them around and enjoying their company is great. =] Well and considering andrea is my best friend everrrr haha and I would say josh is too. I never really was close with him but this school year we have just gotten really close and its awesome, I love it. =]]]]].

Well I think i need to go pass out in my bed and maybe get SOME sleep? haha yes i think so.

Cant wait for wednesday. <3333333333333

~~Ich Liebe Dich~~

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